Saturday, September 15, 2007
hello !
i felt like blogging when i came upon your blog.
firstly, yeah, have not been updating my blog
cause mommy took away the computer wire.
because of my brother, who does not know
when and how long who should use the computer.
today is my HMT exam, so yah.
im hoping that the topic for the writing paper would be easy
and im hoping that the bahasa paper is manageable.
i had sahur this morning and mommy cooked fishball soup.
im uberly dissappointed in both of my parents.
DADDY was the SOURCE that my mood was ruined by him
and then my mommy! :/
daddy exaggerated to mommy that i used the computer till 3am.
WTF ! i used it until 1am alright.
i know i need my goodnight's sleep for today.
and hell yeah, I DID DADDY!
so, i dont know what was your problem until u have to bring up the matter
to mommy. and i REALLY DONT LIKE
when people accussed me of someting which i had not done.
I WAS CHATTING WITH MY REALLY GOOD FRIENDS,
BLOG HOPPING AND FRIENDSTERING.
i was being patient with you when mommy said that,
"there's something strange about you eh nowadays?"
STRANGE=POSSESSED=GILA!
you cant imagine how hurtful it had and i had tears in my eyes.
and sorry to say, mommy you are DUMB!
you can still have the cheek to ask, "why are you crying?"
I HAVE FEELINGS IF YOU DONT KNOW THAT.
IM JUST LIKE YOU OK!
seriously, i dont feel like talking to my parents.
if they want me to be infront of my books 24hours every day,
FINE I WILL DO IT.
if they want me to be like a GEEK and looking sad always,
FINE I WILL DO IT.
seriously, im really dissappointed in them.
moreover, today is my hmt exam,
shouldnt they wish me GOODLUCKS?
but yesterday, Fina made me day.
i did expect that the "STUDY PLAN" wont happen.
it happened for only 45minutes.
we did window shopping at causeway point,
seriously, the checkered tops at ESPRIT turns me on! :D
it was really nice and it cost 50 bucks oi!
and there was this checkered jansport beg, which cost 49!
can i buy it? SAVE SHIKA ! :D
oh yah, we went into the winter clothing shop,
and the sweaters are really cute especially the SESAME STREET ones :D
kalau aku boleh curi, aku curi je seh !
so at 5, we decided to head to civic and enjoy the air con there
and "STUDY".
oh yah, i smsed irah and she was at the third level of the library.
we talked to each other and then she was msging me
when i was "STUDYING" with fina.
our studying was listening HGB's songs and memorising the lyrics
and looking at Forrest picture which i had already printed.
seriously, is effing cute ! :D
ok. at 5.45, we left the library.
we headed to bazaar to plan of buying food.
but end up, we borong SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS punyer brang :D
we were really ahhhhhh, oooohhhh, cuteeeeeeee!
oh yah, so i bought the spongebob wallets for myself and Boyfriend.
he say he would wear it, so make sure you do dear ! :D
and i bought powerpuffgirl sikat which comes with a mirror.
and i bought spongebob waterbottles for myself and Honey Shahida.
oh yeah, i forgot to say thanks ONCE AGAIN to fina,
for buying me the green top! she bought the red top as well.
and 2 was only for 11bucks ! :D
ok, so after buying the spongebob stuffs, we went home.
yes, we had fun :D
sometimes, i do miss you. i cant deny that girl.
cause, you had a special place in my heart and you still do :D
i really dont blame anyone for what happen to us.
instead, i will put the blame on myself.
seriously, im sorry if i have done anything to hurt you.
i didnt mean to. but i have to put our close and meaningful friendship to a stop.
cause, we came to a point where we were having problems here and there,
and we were upset towards each other.
and the feeling really hit me hard and yes, it sucks!
we were not happy together anymore and there was more tension between us.
it came to a point, where something needs to be done.
and i realised that being away from each other is the only solution.
by saying this, im not saying that i totally shove you away from my life.
you are still here in my heart girl.
and dont think that i have forget all the moments we had together.
but i always see it as, good things sometimes wont last forever.
and i guess, our close and meaningful friendship was not meant to be forever.
i think that, for now, we are just friends.
someone to laugh with and share problems with and just be happy.
but eventhough if we want our friendship to be back to normal self,
i doubt it would happen.
we have to move on with our lifes and accept our past.
our past had brought us to where we are today,
be it bad or good.
i know you are a strong babe and once again, im sorry that
sometimes, things dont go out as plan/good like we want to.
i will never forget you .
ps: aku rindu seorang cowok iaitu pacarku yang bernama Ammar :/
5:40:00 AM;
