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Sunday, August 19, 2007

hello !
the half of the day yesterday went perfectly well.
i bought jeans with Boyfriend and yes, we did arm wrestled yeterday.
i plucked out Boyfriend's rambut gatals :D
but at the end of the day,
i was really in a fcuked up mood :/
or is it just my mood swings?
i had promised Reena to meet her.
its been two weeks we havent meet up
and i missed her like fcuk.
i thought i had to meet her outside esp mall
but she was at the gig area.
Boyfriend and his friends were all like already tired to walk there
and i was trying my best to make them walk.
if i had the choice to meet Reena alone, i will do that.
but, i just dont want to leave them alone just like that
cause they had walked all the way there.
i was really upset for not able to meet Reena.
the place was so damn packed with people.
they decided to go home and that would mean,
i wont be able to meet Reena at all.
i was really really really upset :/
and i had Shahida to cling on to only.
Thanks Honey, you are always there for me ok.
i was already on the verge of tears, especially
seeing Boyfriend acting like he doesnt care at all
and he being in his own world with his friends.
i can see that you were happy playing around.
you knew i was upset. you knew i need you to be there.
but you were not. im not seeking attention from you.
but the least you could do, was to ask me if i was ok or not.
i was really fcuked up when you just walked straight infront.
you were playing around with sha.
and you said we were supposed to meet at the station.
we did not know even a single thing.
and dear, the station was really packed.
how were we supposed to meet up.
me and shahida were searching high and low for you all.
i broke down in the mrt because,
one, i did not get to meet Reena.
two, Boyfriend, you were not there when i needed you the most.
this is the second time this such of thing has happened to me.
will you ever be there if im in the most critical stage?
i dont mind if you want to be with you friends and
i understand that you were tired walking.
but the least you could do, was to show care and concern for me.
you just made me cried this morning. you are not doing anything to cheer me up.
Reena, im really sorry and i will really make up to you for yesterday! IMY!
and im REALLY REALLY SORRY )':

try putting yourself in my shoes. how would you feel?

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