My Boyfriend best !

Sunday, July 22, 2007

hello.

okay. finally, im UPDATING (:

yups, school stuffs etc have been keeping me busy.

today, was salad making competition! (:

my cooking partner, majidah!

shasha came and watch us. (:

Mr ammar called me in the middle of the night,

i was uber uber happy when he say

he want come and watch me buat the salad.

from tampines all the way to cck. gah!

you sweet guy :D

unfortunately, he was late!

but, i did had fun making the salad.

we had only 45minutes to complete.

so after which, i went to pick ammar and danial.

his hair is short now from the back. haha!

you still look hot and cute laa seh (;

then, came the results. we did not won.

but, we tried (: certificates pon jd laa.

after the whole thing ended, we went to meet dinah.

we then walked around lot 1.

ammar and i bought the sweets (:

we then had our lunch at LJS.

we then head home after that.

saya dpt kiss today. wee! :D

yesterday, i went to arab street with mommy.

we had our lunch at banquet first.

we bought two sets of kains each.

as usual, i decide the colour code for hari raya this year.

i decided red! but then, we decided we should go blue also!

haha. i bought myself a red beg too (:

and i saw dinah. pelokkkkkkkk her!

on friday was my physics class test.

i did not complete it cause it was fcuking hard.

i will forever fail physics (:

next week is chemistry spa test. gahhh.

i have yet to complete my homeworks.

hopefully, i finish doing them later (:

to think back, i dont really know

what had actually happened.

i cant even put them in words

and settle the problem once and for all.

honestly, im really dissappointed on

how things turned out to be between us.

how i wish that all of that turned out

the other way round.

i would really respect you as a person,

if you have the courage and face to tell us

that you were not happy with us.

i would be really glad if you tell us,

that we had hurt you in someway or another.

im sure we would take the matter to our hearts,

and apologise to you.

cause, i really treasure our friendship and also,

i love you girlfriend.

but, it seems that you had decided to run away from it.

you made us be the villains who had ruined

your life and break your heart deep.

are we so bad infront of your eyes.

i myself dont know what i had done wrong.

how i wish you would point out to me

and that i would be careful the next time round

and not hurt you again.

if you think that we had neglected you,

you are seriously wrong.

but if you still think that way, then be it.

i cant do anything about it.

you were the one who let urself be neglected.

i actually have the slightest thought

to solve the problem between us,

but you were the one who do not give a damn

about it at all.

you were the one who turned your back on us

and confide to others about our problem.

am i right? if im wrong, then correct me pls.

we always go to school together

no matter if you are late or not.

but now, you seem to be giving excuses

not wanting to go to school with us.

if that's the case, i would not want to be so stupid

anymore and have the cheek to ask you

if you want to go to school with us or not.

at school, i always hope that you would come to us

and confront us about our problem.

but you did not. you seem to be at least comfortable

with how things are going on right now.

i know besides us, you still have other special ones

to talk to and spend time with.

i dont mind at all. it seems that you still can live without us.

if you think that they are way better than us,

if you think that they will be by ur side always,

if you think that they love you and care for you,

if you think that they will pick you up when you fall,

then be it. you can put them as your first priorities

if you really want to.

im already the fourth position in your top listed friends.

by reading your sarcastic remark recently,

it hit me hard.

hotfriends? what shit are you talking about.

if you are really my bestfriend,

please show some respect to my friends

who i am mixing around with and whom

i treasure and love alot.

i can decide for my ownself who i want

to be with and who i dont wish to be with at all.

they have nothing to do with us.

so pls, i would really be glad

if you dont drag them into this.

i dont really get it. how you would ever think like that.

do you realise that you were the one

who had caused this spark between us?

now, you had really made me feel that,

all this while you really dont treasure our friendship.

infact, i dont think you had love us.

if im wrong and you dont want our friendship

going down the drain,

talk to us and settle this problem.

if you wish to continue to be this way,

then dont give a damn about us anymore.

we will have a clean break then.

BESTFRIEND means: someone who really knows the meaning of friendship and no matter what happens, he/she would protect it and hold on tightly to it and would never let it go.

BESTFRIEND has a meaning behind it ,

for goodness sake!

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