hello.
yes, today i never go to school (:
simply put, there is ncc day today at school.
im aint gonna show up my ass there
and stand there at the parade square,
listening to a boring speech (:
however, am going to school later for the vietnam meeting.
we have been selling stuffs brought back from vietnam,
at school during during recess.
i must say we made big bucks and a lot of profit i guess (:
school this week has been tiring and sleepy.
i slept during physics lesson the whole time.
its such a bore laa seh. period.
miss mariah never come to school.
where she go? gahhhh.
english was all about oral. i like (:
trigonometric is fun and interesting. i like too (:
today, im watching transformers.
im uberly excited laa.
cause one, i think it is a cool new movie.
and two, im meeting Mr Ammar.
i miss him banget okay. that ass! ;D
i have been listening to indie songs.
and they rock my pantat laa seh.
i find Tilly and the wall nice (:

9:53:00 AM;

hello.
school today was per normal.
Mr Tham Hin has been transferred to 3E1.
gagaga. that smart ass (:
geography was all about developement.
amaths was doing straight line graphs.
i have one question to do.
maths was all about circles still.
i have homework on that.
mr lathif gave me a thumb up for my hair (:
mr siva's face look different :/
i slept throughout the physics lesson (:
tomorrow is pe. weeeeeeee.

2:39:00 PM;

hello.
the last few days before school reopens,
were really fun and tiring too.
first, hanging out with Mr Ammar and his uberly fun friends,
was really fun fun fun.
sukashi and gf F were really friendly with them.
we had laughed our hearts out
and we should do this the next time round (:
next was the rehersal for the ncc day parade.
it was uber tiring bt the food there was really nice.
puas hati laa seh.
next was the dance malay musical at the republic poly.
it was funny and nice to watch.
and i did learned a lil about the history of singapore.
seriously, i did not complete my homeworks.
all are halfway done (:
im so not looking forward for tomorrow.
gah. but i sure do want to meet up my girlfriends and classmates.
amelda looked really cute just now.
her cheeks are oh so tembam. saya suka laa.
amanda liked playing peek-a-boo with me.
amalia was really cute just now [;
im going to grab something to eat while watching Initial D (:
goodnight!

8:13:00 PM;

hello.
my left feet is still hurting due to the ncc spec course camp.
the training on monday and tuesday was uberly tiring.
at the same time, i managed to make new friends [:
i learned new things and thanks alot to the sirs and mems.
today, am going to the library and complete my homeworks.
i havent touch even one of them [:
and june holidays is coming to an end.
gah. time do fly fast.
i just dont feel like going back to school yet. wth.
alright, i better get going!


ps: i love our song. i love you too [:

12:15:00 PM;

hello.
i went out to accompany girlfriend S today,
planning to meet her guy-friend [:
i get to meet my girlfriend F too.
sukashi oh really sweet and gorgeous girl.
simple yet a preetyhead [:
we window shopped at robinsons.
we rounded the levels and we decided to go BK.
i seriously had a great talk and laugh with you girls.
aku suka banget [:
i could not went to city hall with them :/
i had to go for tuition.
but tuition was not bad at all today.
we did laughed our hearts out [:
Ammar you called [:
i just on the dot finish bathing. gagaga.

goodnight people!
ps: girlfriend F, thanks really for the ring.
best friends forever. sorang satu. manis!
i miss you.

12:53:00 AM;

yes, i had a great time yesterday.
i cannot deny this
and i thank you for that.
i enjoy every second being with you.
but at the later part of the day,
i thought i would went home,
all happy and would be the happiest girl for once.
honestly, i did not.
and both of my world's bestest girlfriends
were there for me when i needed a listening ear.
fina called me at the right time
and shasha smsed and called me listening to my cries.
they knew and exactly how to be my only 'confort zone'.
when i read my gf's blog, it really hit me hard.
yesterday, i was uberly down.
simply because of the fact that,
i have the fear overcoming myself,
fear of losing someone whom i have feelings for,
and that the feelings will soon developed.
fear of getting hurt, fear of the flashbacks about my past,
fear of being betrayed.
after what happened yesterday at the end of the day,
you were not there when i needed you.
that is how i felt. and noone can change that fact,
not even you.
and you indeed called me. yes, i thank you for that.
i thank you for what you had at least helped me.
but the only thing i needed was you and only you.
but my girlfriends were there first.
my girlfriends had helped me up when i fell.
and not you.
my heart was really torn apart,
and they helped me stitched the pieces together.
and not you.
where were you?
i was left all alone walking away, and heading back home,
without u holding me back and
even asking if i was going to be alright.
i realised that maybe you are not the one/guy,
for me and i dont deserve to have you at all.
i have doubts holding me back,
and am afraid to speak out my mind to you.
i do like you but do you?
i need security and i want to be loved,
to be respected and accepted just the way i am.
i want to learn how to trust and love someone again.
and i dont know how to.
will you?
will you leave me maybe tomorrow, or the day after?
will i hear honest answers coming out from ur mouth?
i dont know. im on the verge of giving up.
i need reassurance.
i dont know how to ask this from you.
im tired of all these games :/
period.

1:55:00 PM;

hello.
i finally have the urge to write on my blog [:
the skin needs a change right?
starbucks was love on monday [:
thanks deena for wanting me to accompany you that day.
yes, your birthday was yesterday.
i bake for you the choc fudge cake.
banyak sedap hor. kan kan kan? [:
the cooking period, saya suka.
talking and mingling with other girlfriends,
was really fun and we laughed our hearts out.
they saw my new ugly hair [:
im still hating the hair sia :/
i ate tons and tons of food yesterday [:
back at home, mr ammar called me.
i fcuking miss you [:
we played neopets. gagaga.
am maybe meeting you tomorrow [:
today, i woke up and met shasha.
we jogged and shared stories.
shasha, dunt give up yet.
there's still little room for hope aight [:
i cooked nasi goreng just now.
its my first time and i must say,
it doesnt taste bad. gagaga.
im having tuition later on.
must it be a must? :/

5:18:00 PM;

i hate my hair now!
its making me hate myself!
i wish i could turn back time!
GAHHHHHHHH.

12:28:00 AM;

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy.Intelligent. Sexy.
Predict future. Irresistible.
Loves being in long relationships.
Great talker. Alwaysgets what he or she wants.
Cool. Loves to own Geminis' in sports.
Extremelyfun. Loves to joke. Smart.

i love being in long rship is uberly true [:
gagaga.
im grounded from yesterday till next monday.
pathetic, yeah i know.
but am going out with mommy later.
im gonna cut my hair short. wee [:
alright. i miss you boy :/

1:14:00 PM;

3:06:00 PM;

hello.
i watched shrek the third with girlfriend and her brother [:
its super duper cute. saya suka [:
we ate famous amous [:
we bought our tops [:
today's food at the chalet was uberly nice [:
i had a great time with Mr. Ammar [:






the plan today was actually to go out with you
to meet ur friend and to meet mine
and go to the chalet on thursday.
but the plan was changed to,
me accompanying u and going chalet after that.
i did not realise that the plan i made had hurt u badly.
we were bastards u said.
it really shocked me and made me feel upset and hurt.
i was there being so concern but instead i look like a fool,
asking you if u have any problems to share with us.
indeed the problem was me.
u were angry that u felt u will be the only one
not being able to make it for the chalet.
i thought that u would be glad or at least being appreciative,
for i still have the thought to accompany u first.
instead, you were mad with us.
if the chalet was still going on thursday,
i would have definitely stick to our plan.
i thought u would understand, but u intend to choose your own way.
we did not talk much for the whole day.
indeed, you really did blame us and had make it look like
we had made a terrible and big mistake towards you.
if im really at wrong, im really sorry.
is funny that, the smallest matter can ruin a friendship.
i dont want that to happen.
so, accept my apology. i love you.
if u think u are better off without us,
and u have him to lean on, then dont bother about us.

1:21:00 AM;

hello.
i have a date with girlfriend and her brother tomorrow.
i want to watch shrek tiga can? gagaga.
maybe i will be meeting him and give his surprise [:
i wonder how was his work just now.
i wonder dier tengah bikin apa sekarang.
im still in my school clothes. gah.
but shika tak bau busuk eh.
just now doing accounting in school was confusing sia :/
wednesday going for ncc chalet [:

ps: yes, i do.

7:55:00 PM;

12:49:00 AM;

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