My Boyfriend best !

Saturday, March 24, 2007

i read our chat history. i enjoyed reading it back again. our lame jokes and the laughters we had. and how you asked me out on our date. boy, it made me reallyreally missed you. but, the feeling hurts me to bits. i dont know what happened to us. is our friendship still going on, or it just stop to a sudden halt. how i wish i could see where you are now, what you are doing, how are you doing, how i wish, i could see your face and that smile of yours. i missed your voice really. everyday i woke up, hoping to see your name on my hp screen. everyday when i want to have my beauty sleep, my mind would just think of you. and it sucks, that i would simply broke down. the fact is, ive been in this kind of situation for like three times. i thought you were different from the rest that i knew. i thought that you were really sincere and really treasured me, at least, as your friend. i was beginning to trust you and put you into a special place at my heart. i was beginning to like you and appericiate you and your heart. but when i was beginning to love you, the nightmare that i had imagined really came true. and hell yeah, my heart was in a fcuk up situation. i really did not want to get hurt
and i did get myself hurt. i could not escape from it anymore. i was trapped and i am still trap. where did you go? im back to square one where i really need to go through all this shit alone. only god knows, if you have forgotten me and went with some other bitch. if it really is, i respect ur decision, but i definitely be really fcuked up, cos all i asked, for atleast a friendship and not dumbed me just like a trash into a bin. what am i supposed to do now? if you came upon this, i just want you to know, you're the sweetest thing thats ever happen to me, i had considered you as my bestfriend, someone whom i could count on and trust, i am missing your everything and lastly, i had begin to love you and im loving you now .
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