before my birthday, i was just a happy girl.
after i turned into a teenage fifteen girl,
I WAS MORE THAN HAPPY :D
since my birthday,
i decided to just open up a new chapter of my life.
all those past that i had gone through before,
be it good or bad, i had totally accepted them.
and now, i have become a better person.
im enjoying every minute of my life
and not regretting what i had done and gone through,
as i know, everything happens for a reason.
i have gone through alot for the past 15 years,
since the day i was born.

i would not be right here where i am now,
without the support of my family.
my parents, normala bte abdullah & razali bin aman.
mommy has given me all the love & care.
she has seen me growing up since i was a little girl.
she has saw me matured and i know,
im becoming an adult sooner or later,
and she wants me to be a good daughter of hers.
daddy has been showering me with all my wants and needs.
if i want something, he never fails to buy it for me.
my brothers, syamil bin razali & nazri bin razali.
they both are the only siblings i have.
although we fight sometimes,
we would still be the three musketeers.

along the journey of my life,
i found my bestfriends whom i can count on.
one, was shahida aka shasha.she has been stuck on me
since we were primary 1.
8years and 1+mnths is not that long.
how can i forget her?
she picked me up when i was falling down,
and i give her a shoulder to cry on when she was down.
she never fails to make my day perfect.
i will not forget this gorgeous girl
who had been giving me the support i needed.

then, i met shafina aka deena.
when we were in sec1.
at first, we were not close friends.
but as days passes by,
we are now bestest girlfriends.
we had gone through ups and downs together.
although it has been 2years+,
our friendship is still standing strong.
i never regret considering her as my girlfriend.
she never fails to cheer me up when i was down too.
we had our happy moments and that,
i would not forget her at all.

there are also some other girlfriends,
who i loved and kept them in my heart.
majidah, mimie, shiela, asyirin,
ezzati, farah a & farah d, fatin nadya,
eka. i would not forget them
for they have been by my side before.

i then met my best guyfriends.
first, akasyah aka arnab/ brabbit.
we had known each other since sec1.
i had forgotten how our first conversation started.
but what matters now, he is my best guyfriend.
we can crack the lamest jokes ever
and just laugh our hearts off.
he is a nice and sweet friend.
second, i met zakir aka akir.
i had known him since sec1 too.
and he is my best mate till now.
he sat behind me in class,
and sometimes besides him.
but im starting to sit beside him now in class.
we just loved to smile each other.
cos, he can give his widest smile ever to me
and i can give him mine too.
he shared his problems to me
and i was his listening ear.
but, when he is angry, i wont dare to get close to him.
stil, he is a funny guy and is been rawking great fun being with him.

just two months ago, i met lazirahs.
figure out that name. haha.
he was the one who had heard about my past relationship before.
he gave me some advices and
i was the one who had to make the right decisions.
and i did make one. thanks to him partly.
and since then, we had been friends
and now, i treat him as my best guyfriend.
in return, i gave him advices too.
i just hate it when seeing him down.
he has a nickname for me, kambing. ah-huh. ahah.
he had heard all those funny laughs i made.
but that is who i am. and i guess he knows it too.
he had seen me cry, and i seen him cry too.
and his presence added to my life,
makes myself feel complete and happy about myself.
he was like my happy ending cos, right now,
im leading a wonderful life.
and i want him to be happy always too.
i just hope that, this friendship we had
just stands strong
so that i can always be there for him
to cheer him up and give him support
to move on strong in his life.

to all this people mention above,
just remember that you will always
have a special place in my heart.

on my birthday, they had wished me,
and given me presents and also happiness
and THANK YOU as that is all i can say,
from the bottom of my heart.

i gave my bestfriends a treat a long john on my birthday.
& it was a nice one.
and i went to bilal too.
and my "BOYFRIEND" abng din was back.
yups, we did chatted. i like his hair.
abng sultan gave me icecream with fruits.
it was so sweet. oh, im missing bilal.
going there someday. just wait and see. hehe.

throughout our journey of life,
there will be the good pasts,
there will be the bad pasts.

'miss good' is the want we always want to think of,
but when 'miss bad' comes in the way,
it makes us want to throw them faraway.

to not just think of them,
we have to be throwing strong,
cos' those freaking things really bring us wrong.

it will hurt us no matter what,
and tear our hearts with their mighty strength.
but after tearing our hearts so hard,
they still want to choke us till we are out of breath.

to think back again,
bad pasts are the ones out of our hearts,
and the good ones are every side of our hearts.

good ones just filled with laughter to hear,
all smiles to see,
and keep buzzing in our heart like a bumble bee.

whereas bad ones are just jealous phucks,
who just seeks for our sympathy,
and makes us actually care for them phucks.

we don't realise we are wasting our tears for the bad,
and when the good ones and bad ones are preparing for a war,
sooner or later, there will be a NO.3 world of war.

our sad faces for the person we love to see,
for he/she is involved in the world war of heart,
in return, our lives will get a very terrible hate.

we can actually avoid this war,
and lets make peace with one another,
between our good pasts and the bad pasts.

please make a peace for all our pasts,
please make them into our turning points,
cos afterall this is what life is actually all about.

there is no need the word hatred in our dictionary,
as there no such fcuking meaning in our vocabulary,
and those dumb ones would waste their time thinking about their past,
like looking for the meaning of the word hatred in the dictionary.

let our bad pasts please us for once or at least twice,
for there is no chance called thrice,
and that is when we will regret it all at once.

it can be done and it should be done,
for our mission is now,
just moving forward and strong for now and tomorrow.

when thinking about them again,
we will bega\in starting the war all over again,
like starting to spit bullshit our of our mouths,
when it is the best for us
to just move on.

we cannot deny the fact that,
the bad pasts are all full of BULLSHIT,
but actually, we can turn it into a BEAUTIFUL SHIT!

shit of course smells freaking stinky,
but why can a fart smells nice,
for when people accidentally and actually can smell them,
and said, it's ok, forget just about the fart smell,
for the people know, we really need to use the toilet after that.

is not a joke infact,
but is indeed a fact,
why we can accept the fart smell
but we cannot even accept our
own bad past and just move on?

at the end of the day,
people are not perfect and always makes mistakes,
for the good pasts and bad pasts exist,
to just be there and guide us to move on strong
and never ever look back at the war,
that existed before.

*whenever you think about the bad pasts in your life,
think of these three pictures.*

+ =

MR. BULL + SHIT = BULLSHIT

(it is called chocolate shit
when i search the taik, sorry i made you guys
close your two eyes x))

shika is outta her mind i know :)
but when you think of your terrible past, just think of your face like that angry BULL. ALRIGHTS. GOOD :D

how about those pictures friend? hahaks.
it maybe BULLSHIT for you. hehe.
but, i know you like it. kwa3. herrrrrrrrrr.
so whenever you, and applies to the readers
who are reading this,
if you are thinking of terrible past,
just say BULLSHIT.
cos should not be thinking of them
and MOVE STRONG.(unless you are not sure/ready to move on)
it is my opinion but if you have an opinion of your own,
be it by all means :)
will update about today later on.
so MR BULL :D
if you have read this, contact me or anything.
thanks for lending me a should to cry on.
is really nice of you.
a friend in need, and a friend indeed =D

adakah ia datang,
ataupun ia pergi.
bukannya senang,
untuk dikecapi.

hendak lupakan mimpi,
akan mengguris hati.
hendak berkata pasti,
takut terluka nanti.

{ingin ku terbang ke awan,
untuk mencapai bintang-bintang.
telah idam seorang teman,
agar jadi bintangku.}

hendak berterusan begini,
bermimpi tanpa henti.
hendakkah ku begini,
sehingga hayatku akhiri.

{lemahkah aku,
bila ku berkata,
semua ini hanya khayalanku,
yang bukanlah nyata.}

hendak memiliki,
ku pasti takkan terjadi.
apabila sedari,
ku pasti ini hanyalah mimpi.

{mimpi, berhentilah kamu,
jangan bermain di fikiranku.
aku tidak terdaya,
untuk pertahankannya lagi.}

{hendak menafikan,
bahwa hatiku juga rasa.
bahwa ia merasakan,
diri ku ingin mencuba.}

{mencuba peluang,
untuk mempunyainya.
mungkin tiada ruang,
tapi peluang harus direbutnya.}

{namun, adakah ku bersedia,
jikalau mimpi hanya fantasi.
yang tiada indahnya,
apabila realiti...}

this is the edited poem of mimpi.
i added in some lines with this "{"
at the ends of it.
but this time i gotten a good inspiration.
i had this gerhana ska cinta song, "MIMPI".
my itunes for a long time, the song that is playing at blog now.[/info]
so when i heard it, i immediately thought about my poem.
so i checked out its lyrics,
and that's where i managed to put on my thinking cap
and edited my poem.
anywaym here is the lyrics of gerhana ska cinta song, MIMPI.

Ku Ingin terbang ke awan
Mengapai bintang-bintang
Dalam kegelapan malam
Ku idamkan satu taman
Dan juga mahligai
Yang indah tak ternilai

Tapi semua hanya hayalan
Yang bermain dalam fikiran
Tak mungkin dapat ku pertahan
Yang tinggal hanyalah Impian

Namunku masih mencuba
Untuk punya segalanya
Walaupun bertahun lama
Semogakan terlaksana

*REPEAT